homesick2

Last night I dreamed that four big carp were sitting in a bowl of water. One was black, one white, one orange, and one with patches of each. The water barely covered them; in fact, their fat bodies were drying out on the parts that the water wouldn't cover. They heaved heavily when they breathed, and occasionally one jumped as if to escape the bowl. My job in the dream was to find fresh water for them. I asked my mother where I could find water, but she only knew where there was polluted water. I felt that they would die soon without fresh water, but I wasn't able to find any before I woke up...
The feeling I had in this dream was the same feeling that is overshadowing my mind lately. That is, dissatisfaction, frustration, confusion and sadness.
Today I read about the second and often more severe culture shock that many foreign people living in Japan experience. The handbook I read offered several possible coping strategies. I still would like to go home.