thinking too much in an already weakened state

thinking things over a bit more, I'm going to play my own devil's advocate for a minute.
What if I were to come home in July?
I think in a lot of ways, I feel like I've started something here that will take more time to really finish. I've only just started to understand some of the language. I've only just started feeling comfortable in these surroundings, and I've only just got my feet on the ground. I feel like one year would be too short to really incorporate all I've been learning.
On the other hand, I did note that all the people who responded(with the exception of 'anonymous', who I can't say for sure) are music people. They've surely noticed the painful lack of music references in my blog. I feel stifled and starved musically. Looking at things through that perspective, I can see why so many of you might see coming home as the better option. When I look at things that way, I see coming home as the better option too. Bringing this to my attention, I realize why my friends are saying what they are saying. This will take more time, but I want to completely (re)consider all these aspects of my decision to stay.


As a spontaneous, yet seemingly related side note to coming home, I've just been informed that I have to make up the two elementary school days that I missed throughout the past year NEXT WEEK. So, I have three elementary school days next week at three different schools. That's probably more than 500 students i to see. I already know that one school wants me to teach six classes during the day.
this is craziness.
do motivational speakers sometimes have to do something like this? teach 15-18 classes of all different students in three days? some profession must do something like this that i can reference? makes me feel like going AWOL