I tell of my day-to-day experiences in a funky Japanese town from my American viewpoint. This blog could also be called 'Bizarro World', 'Notes From Kyushu, a Smaller Island', or 'Teaching English in Japan: Smash Your Ego in 10 Easy Lessons."

Monday, April 17, 2006

beyond loneliness

Sigh... I had so many friends...

now I spend so much time

alone

or even surrounded by people

and I just disappear...



if you couldn't connect to the people around you

would you think of it as a curse

or a gift?


in my mind

it is a rare chance in life

to actually bear something...

...to find out what life is

without sharing every second of it

with someone else.


what are you without others?

4 comments:

DoneCheap DoneRight PC said...

Hey jetblossom...! Ya' know it's funny because I feel all the time that I'm alone in the world because I just don't get people sometimes...

I know them so well and yet still can't figure them out but that doesn't mean that I don't love them the same...

It would suck pretty bad to have to walk through your entire life alone without being able to share your experiences with anyone but hey, we are all alone in our own way and we all die that way...

I'll bet Japan is amazing...I grew up with a Japanese family, well, I spent a several years with them anyway and learned so much, it has made me who I am today, whoever that is. Anyway I can go off on tangents sometimes so later...

jetblossom said...

thanks blu!
I agree that we'll all die by our lonesome selves, and that Japan is amazing. If I could share exactly how much it's changed me by being here, I probably wouldn't be 'beyond lonely' anymore.

Something that I can share that did change me, though, was that I'd never been exposed to such perserverence before I came here. And not just students or kids cheering each other on or that kind of thing. Adults encourage each other and encourage ME all the time to 'do your best' and 'never give up.' When I stopped resisting what I thought was people being insincere, realized it didn't have to be and started listening, it changed me.

DoneCheap DoneRight PC said...

That's what it's all about, ain't it cool, later...

blu

Rine said...

Again, you've managed to post about something I've thought about a lot lately. No matter where you are and who you are with, esentially you're alone. I've got a great bunch of friends in london that I love but at the end of the day, the only person I have to keep myself company is me. I might just elaborate in a post! Keep up the excellent posts!